I know I haven't developed as I should have by now ..
Or at least like I'd like but I got the ball rolling ..
Not perfect nor have I ever claimed to be (least not that I can recall) but I'm learning how ,not necesarily be "PERFECT" , but do bring thee best of Edith sooner than later ..
Why must you ask ..
( so do I.. Lol)
Cause I've caught myself taking things and people for granted ..
& I shouldnt .
No one should ..
[FYI: as I'm writing this, my daughter should be going to sleep like her brother, she's laying next to me watching me type ]
Life IS a gift.
lately I've been getting more involved w/the BOOK ,,which reminds me ,Lucy hasn't been around ..
& it says as soon as we arrive we are handed the results of Eve's actions which is wrong in my opinion but its logical..
I know often I get too caught up in the reality which leads to "mean girl" phase & after my actions have been taken I think back & see my faults but at that moment all I can really do is ask for his forgiveness cause at the end of the day he's thee only being who understands us ..
I'm trying for my family to be a better me but of course like I've said I'm not perfect I have faults ..
But I believe that as long as I can regconize each & every of my fault and stay away from ill be a step closer . ..
& I honestly thin.k that if each & every one of us work on ourselves day by day ..
No need for drastic change jst knowing w/in yourself that you feel better , learning & improved self we could actually give our kids this world a better living ..
You know that type of living where going to the theather wasn't a live or die situation
The type where parents weren't afraid to let their children roaming around the hood w/the neighbors cause of the wickedness the world carried..
Where the kids wrote litto letters on a piece of paper w/pencil rather than texting ..
Do you remember those days cause I sure do & for my kids sake I wish I was 40 so my babies could have been born in a better place ...
So pls if you're reading this (& I know my thoughts are scrambled like crazy) make a conscious desicion of working on you ..
On that inner peace , cause God is it a beautiful feeling
So we could all come together & take all evil ,hurt and negative energy away from our world to make a better place for our future ..
Might be a litto late but we won't know til the day we try ..
So pls keep that in mind .
-edith
