I appreciate my parents dearly,  but like every other, perfection was never in them. .

Now that I have children of my own & I'm understanding God,  life & love in a way that I thought I'd never see/understand. .

But in those Times that I catch certain things that aren't appropriate for my children, I tend to ask God himself,
"why couldn't or why didn't they catch certain things & prepared my siblings & I for these certain harsh realities.??"

I don't nor will I hold that against them, I jst wish they would have taken the time .

And for this I appreciate the fact that you're opening my mind, heart, &eyes to what's really important in life,  in MY life.

There's days that I wake up & say to myself,(yes , I speak to myself!)
"At this age I was suppose to start THINKING about growing a family of mine."

& I don't think anyone will be able to understand how filled my heart is w/happiness that MY plans didn't follow through,  yes I went through some crap that ill never wish upon even the devil itself &  unfortunately I made some irrational decisions because of it  ,  but it's brought me to have my babies.

& if it wasn't for them,  MY family,  I wouldn't of longed for you,  your wisdom.

So yea my parents didn't give a heads up,  & yea I had to put up w/crap as I child,  and so what if my plans didn't make it through, I'm jst happy HIS did.