Today I felt like I hit a new rock bottom.

Going into detail is unnecessary. .

My life has been a roller coaster since I was 11 & it has yet to make a stop,  I'm grateful for what I do have but sometimes I feel like I'm not giving it my all.
Financially, most of all..

I feel tied knowing he has to take on that aspect of our life by himself,  cause well I was used to bringing the bread to my own table. 

But Im also aware that the moment I decide on helping him out , I'd be giving up on one time memories w/my children .
& I wasn't a fan of it while we were in California so..

I know I'm not perfect,  but keep in mind I'm a mother,  which means (personally) that we feel the need to do more for our family in every aspect & when I feel like I don't, I get disappointment on myself. .

& no matter how difficult I am to be loved or love back, this man  will be outside my door til I come back to my senses & soothes w/his kind words. .

Which makes me feel so much more of an asshole. .

He's not perfect , I sure as hell ain't!

But I'm appreciating the fact that you've taken away from yourself to take a ride w/me ..

Mrs.Escobar♡