Today out of all Days , I've becomed soo Ashamed of Ever getting mad at my then boyfriend as much as I was mad at myself for getting pregnant again at such a short period of time from having my first born..
Cause now more than ever I recognize her purpose in Our family , in my life...
That child, that at first I was soo blindly to recognize her as a blessing rather than anything lower of, became the glue of the family, the Joy, if you will.
I didn't want a babygirl due to experiences, but now that I'm growing I'm finding myself Jst enjoying as much as I can.
Many find it a Luxury to have Vacation trips away from home & sometimes away from their children.
Mine were "Date Nights".
Not too long ago, I panicked for not being able to Financially help my husband, went on an interview.
While there for a presentation , I felt so ..
So outta place & felt useless not being w/my kids..
& in my head negative thoughts started running, thankfully it didn't consume me.
& Jst started realizing , that in fact I felt so uncomfortable because that wasn't my place to begin with.
as I learn more about YOU , it comes naturally to me to "connect the dots", have those "Ahhhhhha!" Moments.
Having my husband going to work to support us, while I get to stay home & recuperate the hours I missed out while I worked & enjoying each & every moment HE gives us..
Has Become My Luxury, nah more of a Blessing.
Thank You For Today.
Let's Improve Tomorrow.
Be Happy This Day.
-Edith
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