I can't stop things from happening, all I can do is treasure the moment. .
& I know HE is giving me small projects as baby steps so when HE does his will, i wouldn't take it as a sudden scenario, I just wish I had properly used my time by his side.
I don't know the certainty of my kids tomorrow & when I over think it, I get scared & tears want to come out but I remind myself that if God has kept me alive til now, it's for this purpose.
He's only building up my faith & strength.
I know my kids will rely on Strong Edith. .
It'd be nice to have a strong support group, but I'm aware God is taking the middle man out to have an intimate relationship w/him only.
